I was only 14 when I first laid eyes on you. I remember like it was yesterday its been almost 13years how time flies and you still have that face I fell in love with the prettiest eyes I have ever seen on a man. You were sitting right behind me but I didn't notice you till I stood up I didn't want to obstruct your view but I guess your view was me, yes I saw you, you couldn't take your eyes off me, that's when I noticed those eyes and that face.
I was kind of a tom boy, not your typical girly girl you can say, I just I wasn't into the latest fashions, trying to look pretty, give me a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and I was fine, I loved to play video games with the boys, and loved the out doors especially at 14 I just was one of the boys.
what did he see in me, I didn't think anyone found me pretty especially in those over sized school uniforms and that almost bald shaved head then I really looked like a guy not because I am not confident but just cause I didn't consider my self to be that girly plus everyone said I was fat or didn't he see that too?, well maybe I really was in his view and he couldn't help but stare at me.
Dancing is my passion its my life, I dance because its me, and as long as I have these two feet God gave me I shall dance, on that note I was doing what I do best, dancing. it was a school dance I forgot to mention and I get a tap on my shoulder, its the guy with the pretty eyes "do you want to dance?" me? no one ever asked me to dance I just was never the kind of girl that guys picked to dance with, it didn't bother me though I had more fun that way because I didn't have to act all proper and could just be myself. I was already dancing we might as well, OK now honestly it wasn't a dance to remember he had two left feet and couldn't dance to save his life but he was cute, I didn't mind he wouldn't qualify for dancing with the stars I was just glad he picked me, no one ever picked me. that did something for me I didn't understand at first, he made me feel wanted and that was good. He brought out the girl in me and eventually the woman.
It was the summer holidays, I remember like it was yesterday, that perfect unintentional first kiss, I dreamt about it for days I held my lips and I could see your face, I could smell your skin on mine I wonder if you felt the same way, I had butterflies for days, is this what love feels like, I thought I was going to fly there were so many butterflies in my stomach.
then you asked me to be your girlfriend, we were 15 I didn't know what to say but what I hear in movies, "I'll think about it" then ran home, shy. Me? his girlfriend? am I the luckiest girl on earth or what? there was no thinking about it he knew that my heart already belonged to him. he was my first love, first kiss, first boyfriend... the same man I lied to for so long to save our love or so I thought. a love so tender, so innocent shattered in lies, killed and gone forever?
But this love was doomed, from the start, you were so innocent, I had seen too much, heard too much and experienced things I wasn't supposed to. how do I start to tell you these things. what we shared was so beautiful and innocent I loved It I love you I didn't want to spoil it yet alone lose you. So I played a role, I made such a good actress, I played the role of your lady, the woman you wanted me to be and I was good. It became so easy being your lady than being me, I wanted to be yours not me cause you wouldn't want me, then the script ended...
I lied for so long to save a love so tender, so innocent and I killed it, I had to love myself first to love you. There was no script anymore, I had to be me and I wanted to be me, I loved me and didn't even know it until I was tired of acting. I didn't want to act being your lady I wanted to be your lady. so I walked away from our love but never from you with the pretty eyes.
Because I don't want to be anyone but me.
